Blog by Sumana Harihareswara, Changeset founder

05 Jan 2002, 18:04 p.m.

So I'm going to take the California Basic Educational Skills…

Hi, reader. I wrote this in 2002 and it's now more than five years old. So it may be very out of date; the world, and I, have changed a lot since I wrote it! I'm keeping this up for historical archive purposes, but the me of today may 100% disagree with what I said then. I rarely edit posts after publishing them, but if I do, I usually leave a note in italics to mark the edit and the reason. If this post is particularly offensive or breaches someone's privacy, please contact me.

So I'm going to take the California Basic Educational Skills Test� (CBEST�) as insurance of a sort against unemployability. Substitute teaching, much like temping, would provide flexible employment and income, but I'd be teaching, which I like, and not just working as a file clerk in some soul-draining corporation. I know schools can be soul-draining, too, but I'd have more interest in the work, and possibly be more effective in making my little part of it more true.

The other job -- why am I so embarrassed to tell you this? -- the other job I'm planning is that of entrepreneur. I am good at teaching, and I'm rather above the mean when it comes to skills with computers in general. So I am going to ... no, that's too strong, right now. Soon, when I've thought it over more, I'll commit to it as a goal. But I am very strongly leaning towards starting a business tutoring people in how to use their desktop computers. I already do this sort of thing all the time for my family and sometimes for friends and acquaintances in computer labs. I'm good enough; why shouldn't I make money at it? I'm friendly, approachable, knowledgable, patient, and polite.

I am going to read up on entrepreneurship in the next few months. This is the job I've fantasized about for a year. I have to allow myself to dream, even as I carefully build that dream into reality, and even as that building takes patience and drudgery and risk.

My mother is behind me. At least I know I can count on her. And I hope you'll support me, too.

I have never felt so nervous writing a journal entry in my life.